3rd Week of training-Why haven't I blogged?

Last week was emotionally draining and I was physically exhausted :( That's so sad. My second week of training went ok. I completed two days of my training schedule. I wasn't too happy with myself, but I have time to get back into it. That's life, right? So now I'm into a brand new week and thinking very positive for my training.

This weeks schedule:

Monday: Other obligations:(
Tuesday: Teach Step Class/ run 1.5 miles
Wednesday: run 1.5 miles/ cardio
Thursday: run 1.5 miles/cardio
Friday: Rest
Saturday: run 1.5 miles/cardio
Sunday: Cardio or rest.

Looking forward to training! Oh, I almost forgot, I lost 2 lbs last week. Yay for Weight Watchers! I know that's cheesy, but that's how I feel.

Whoever might be reading this,I hope you have a good week.

First week of training

This week has been a very good week for me. I've stuck with my training schedule and feel really good about things right now. Last night I bought a really nice pair of running shoes, oh boy I can't wait to try them out!

Off to a good start.

Today I went for a run around city park. Oh boy, I love this time of year. As I was running, I noticed that the leaves have changed and the smell of rain was in the air. I ran 1 mile and walked a mile around the park. Right now I'm feeling good.

Anyone out there reading my blog, I hope you have a Happy Monday.

It's Time.

During the past couple of months I have not been myself. I set out these big goals to accomplish and I tell all of my friends that I'm going to do it. Now the time has come and I have failed. I am so pissed off at myself. Not only did I let my friends down (I think), most importantly I've let myself down yet again. I've noticed people in my life who are doing well for themselves. They are going after what they want. A part of me is so jealous. I question how they do it. Honestly I can only be mad at myself. I am the one who's standing in the way of what I want. For the last 3 years, I have so badly wanted to run a half-marathon and to lose weight. I can remember a time in my life that I truly loved who I was. During the time of self-love I was happy with myself and where I was at in my own life. Now things are so much more complicated. I am in a position where my decisions effect those who are closest to me. No matter what I decide I am hurting someone and that feels awful. Sometimes I would rather hurt myself 10 times than to hurt someone else. However, I have to stop hurting myself and start listening to my heart. My heart has been telling my so many things throughout that past 5 years and I have chosen to put those feelings aside. Now, I have to listen. I have to figure out a way to do what's best for me. So many people have told me that it's better to be in a little bit of pain at first rather than to be in a lifetime of pain.

So now is the time to really work on myself. I have given myself a year to accomplish my goals. First off, I want to become a marathon runner. I've wanted to participate in the Waddell and Reed Marathon in Kansas City for the past 3 years. Now is the time! I can not put it off any longer. Second, I want to lose weight (not quite ready to reveal the number). I want to embrace the seasons and not be afraid of them because of my weight. Lastly, throughout my journey I need to find what it is that I truly want for my life. This will be hard work and I'm going to have to make tough decisions that may or may not hurt loved ones. This is what I know now, I can not keep hurting myself and living a life that is not me.

Best of Luck to me, I can do this!

It's So Frigging Hot Outside!

Within the last week I've been running on the treadmill. I'm not sure if that's ok or not. With the scorching temperatures outside, I've been forced to run inside at the gym. Last Sunday, I was looking forward to my run until I noticed that my ipod was not charged :( Oh well, I was there to workout and clear my mind. I ran 2 miles while I watched Pearl Harbor on the television. It is so tempting to not start a workout once you realize your ipod is dead. My relationship with my ipod is bittersweet. I love it because it keeps me motivated throughout my workout but then I hate it because I rely on technology to keep me going instead of my own inner strength. I hope you all can relate.

I recently read an article about training for a race on the treadmill. I can recall that it was ok to do so, but I just need to be sure that I have at least one day out of the week where I'm running outside. Also, I need to increase my incline to 1 on the treadmill. I'll give that a shot over the weekend.

Tuesday I needed to get in a run for the day, so I went between work and a program that I had to teach later that evening. I gave myself 30mins. to get in and out. Throughout the short amount of time I was in the gym, I was sweating like no other. Once I got back to work to change, I put my gym clothes in the car and left them in for 24 hours. My stinky, sweaty gym clothes had been sitting inside my car with temperatures in the high 90s to 100 degrees. Gross! When I went to teach my step and tone class Wednesday evening I couldn't find my gym clothes. I forgot they were in the car! When your at a weight that is unacceptable to you, you don't think about getting multiple pairs of really tight gym pants to workout in. You get one pair because you are tired of buying a size large and you are hoping that this will be the last time. Although, of course the smart thing to do is to at least buy two pairs so that you won't have to wear stinky, sweaty, day old gym pants to teach a class in. Long story short, I'm so glad that we only had 3 people in class and they were all able to spread out that way they could not smell me. I feel sorry for those who walked by me while I was on the treadmill rockin out to some Rob Base & DJ EZ "It Takes Two To Make a Thing Go Right."

Ok, I guess I should be getting back to work. Oh the life as an adult and being in a job that makes you think about all the possible ways of trying to get fired. Yep, that's my life as of now. Happy Happy Thursday!!

For real, thank you to those who are reading my blog.

Day ? It's been a while

Here lately my running has been off and on. However, I haven't given up on my goal to complete a half marathon by Oct. Right now I am still running but not at the miles I should be at by now. Oh well, what can you do? Jump back onto the wagon and stay focused. Since my last post, life has been challenging. Mentally my attitude and mood have been blah :( I'm not sure what's going on with me. Last Monday I had a mental break down all throughout the day and then when I went to teach my aerobic class, I came back a new woman. I went from gloomy to cheerful. I now know how important it is to have exercise in my life. The psychological effects of fitness can dramatically increase your mood and anxiety. I'm writing an article for work about the influence of exercise on our mental health. I am finding some facinating information that I can relate to.

Recently I've joined Weight Watchers and trying to stay motivated to lose weight. Journaling my food points is my biggest challenge. What is wrong with me? I know that when I journal I am definitely successful at the scale by the end of the week. I think I'm waiting for something to hit me in the head to help my motivation. Rather than looking into my closet to see all the wonderful and cute clothes that I can not fit into should be enough of a motivator, unfortunately it's not. All I have to do is journal. Physically I'm ready to lose weight, but mentally I'm not. Sometimes you have to be in the right state of mind, when will I ever get there? I really need to take the pressure off of myself and just take one day at a time. Right now I'm still frustrated in myself for gaining all of my weight that I had lost previously when I was a Weight Watchers member. My best friend told me that I can not live in the past or future, I have to live in the moment. I can't change the fact that I had gain the weight. What I have to do now is live in the moment. Take one day at a time and journal. Most importantly, I can not beat myself up for when life happens.

Alrighty, that's what's going on with me at the moment. I have a scheduled run to complete tonight and a meeting with one of my running club members. We will be running together for the first time tonight. I'm sure it will go well.

Happy Thursday!

Day 5,6,7

Ok, I've been really busy. Last week I ran on tues, wed, and on friday. Did not complete a long run over the weekend:( Oh well, life goes on. This week the goal is to run 2 miles on tues, wed, and thurs. I love having a set workout schedule but here lately it's been very sporadic. I think I'll go back to my original plan and run tues, wed, thurs. and a long run on sat. or sun. I'll give it a try and see what I can get done. The goal is to run 3 days during the week and a long run on the weekends. Now, with regards to P90X, I'm not sure if I can complete it in the next 3 months. Right now I have 2-3 aerobic classes I teach throughout the week. In July I'll have 4! Trying to find time to run, teach an effective aerobic class and complete P90X is a major challenge. I just need to see where I can fit P90X in to my schedule. I thought about completing a workout on the days that I don't have a class to teach. I'll figure something out.